Addicted

So, I figured I’d address one of the darker parts of mental illness. I mean, it’s really all pretty dark, but this was the shadowy, really secretive abyss for me, personally. I found myself addicted to a couple prescription medications as a teenager. They were prescribed to treat a very real condition, but I found […]

How To: Inpatient Stay

Inpatient care for mental illness is beyond stigmatized. It is almost demonized, at least where I come from. When I was told I was being to a behavioral health center following my first overdose, I went into full panic mode. Every alarm was going off in my head and all I could say was no. If […]

Life After (attempted) Death

When I woke up in the ICU after my second suicide attempt, I looked up at the ceiling tiles and just wondered…how? How could I possibly live my life after this? I hadn’t planned for after because there wasn’t supposed to be one. I wish someone had told me then that there was a whole […]

Post-Atom Bomb

Hey you, Stop. For just a moment, pause and take a deep breath. I know what’s happening in your head right now. You can call BS on that, but I’m telling you honestly, I get it. It’s like an atom bomb has gone off. There’s been a massive explosion of emotion and it’s devastated all […]

Survive

I am a survivor of things most people will never face and will never understand. I have been pinned down, struck, mocked, lied to, shared, and traumatized. I have looked into the eyes of men who felt nothing but pleasure as they took what was mine. I have iced bruises and fat lips, soaked in […]

How to Save a Life

I’ve been told on many occasions that I am an inspiration. People have told me how brave I am, how they look up to me, and how they can’t imagine facing these things themselves. I’ve been told that I am a lifesaver. I’ve been thanked for my empathy and patience. I’ve been the shoulder to […]

Being Borderline: You’re Not Damned

When I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I thought my whole world had ended. But, it hadn’t. A year and a half later, when I was given the dual diagnosis including borderline personality disorder, I thought my entire identity was a lie. But, it’s not. I have spent a copious amount of time researching BPD. […]