Roots

I don’t want to be normal. I want to feel until my very bones ache from the weight of it. It’s what I’ve done my entire life. I enjoy it in best and worst ways. I think my doctors look at me like I’m seriously messed up because of it. I do my part, I […]

A Look Inside

Today I am writing a letter to those who were hurt in the aftermath of my latest mood swing and its accompanying actions. I am terrible at face to face confrontation, so please forgive me for writing this out. I just felt the need to get these feelings written out for all of us. I am […]

And that is good.

Today, I am alive and that is good. I may not be grateful for it every second. Contrary to popular belief, I don’t have to be. It’s kind of impossible to be, really, for anyone in this world. But, today, I am alive and that is good. I may not be happy for it every […]

“Take Care of Your Life”

Well…I’m back. Let’s skip the part where I artfully beat around the bush and then we all come to the same tearful realization together…I tried to kill myself again. Which, really, shouldn’t be all that surprising based on the tirade I posted here and the warpath I was on outside of my computer screen. Yay […]

I Will Not Apologize

I will not say that I am sorry for attempting suicide. I will not apologize for having bipolar disorder, OCD, BPD, or PTSD. I will not be the one to apologize for being sexually abused and assaulted. I will not say that I am sorry that you missed all of this, when it was happening right under […]

Move Along

If there’s anything this last year has taught me, it’s that standing still isn’t an option. In the last twelve months, I have moved eight times. I have lived in three different cities and three different states. I have nearly died at my own hand. I have carved over 100 new scars into my shoulders. […]

Addicted

So, I figured I’d address one of the darker parts of mental illness. I mean, it’s really all pretty dark, but this was the shadowy, really secretive abyss for me, personally. I found myself addicted to a couple prescription medications as a teenager. They were prescribed to treat a very real condition, but I found […]